A wish to make a difference

For many the desire to make a difference is there but the means to do it seems some what limited. I am one of those people I have pretty much no money I am living pay check to pay check trying to keep my family a float. But I have a hope to one day be able to make a difference I have 3 goals I am hoping to accomplish one day the first is housing for homeless and low income families that are trapped by the governments regulations to never be able to get out of being supported by the government I would like to buy a huge plot of land and split it into many and put container homes on them with rent/mortgage being estimated by incomes the families would slowly pay of the cost of making the homes and when they are done they own their own homes and land. The money that they paid back would be then used to make more homes and so on.
The second would be food store houses people would pay 0-10% of their income to help maintain but they would be able to get anything they need that the store house carries and it would be given depending on family sizes. If they are able to they could help in the store house to lower cost of running. If this type of thing was carried out in our country it would save our government so much money they could buy stuff in bulk and then people would be getting thinks that they need and that are healthier for them instead of a lot of the junk that is bought.
The third would be a college or trade school open to help get the less fortunate a certificate or degree also I would like the school to own several facilities such as restaurants, retail facilities, mechanic shop that the students could work at to also get job experience and an income but also help the school make revenue since they will not be charging the students.

I know these are probably fantasies but one day I would like to see these things happen I am tired of seeing generation after generation stuck in government programs with no hope of getting out because of the way the government sets up these hand outs I feel the people need to take back a lot of the things that government run because all the government has shown is how to run things in the ground. we need to help our neighbors excel help them stand on their own to feet.

My hope for this nation is that one day we can all have the basic needs met.

There will always be varying degrees of wealth that is just how it is but that doesn't mean somethings can't be improved for all.

Anything goes macaroni

2 box of Macaroni and cheese Make it how the box says (Butter, Milk, cheese packet)

Add 2 cups spaghetti sauce (I use Prego)
1-2 cups of Shredded cheddar
2 -5 oz can tuna
1 -16 oz can Corn can

After you make the Macaroni and cheese in a larger pan add in everything else and stir real good.
Its not gourmet or anything but it is a super quick easy meal that my family love.

A thought of Desperation

 (I would like to point out a few things before you read this many people in the world today suffer from varying levels of depression it is sometimes genetics they may have an imbalance of some sort in the chemical makeup or they might have situational depression where they experienced something traumatic that triggered their depression i.e. death in the family, war, assault, loss of job/financial stability. Many things can trigger or cause depression and many time the family and friends can't quite understand what going on or even why its going on. I suffer from depression some days are better than others I try to catch myself before it gets to far gone but sometimes I'm a little to late one of my ways with coping is writing that is why some of my poems may be a little dark this one I wrote in one of my harder hours. It might not make a lot of sense but it gives me comfort)

Here I'm drowning
Can't reach out
So alone
Must speak up
Help me keep me from falling
Here I am without you
What can I do to get out
What can I do to hold on
How can I keep it together
When I am falling apart
I'm bleeding broken and crying
Screaming and dieing tonight.

The shadows of yesterday still cling to the walls of my memory
Haunting and hurting
Burning into my mind the horrors of my past
What can I do to go on
What can I be to fight this eternal misery
I must carry on fighting the demons in my head
Far to often they have me on the ground
kneeling and screaming
I'm bleeding broken and crying
Screaming and dieing tonight

But I will fight
Not just for my mind
But for my life
For peace, my hope
All that could one day be mine
I will hold on to who I am
I will not live in this terror
I will be stronger than humanly possible
I am not weak because of my struggles and pain
I am strong because I have not taken the cowards way out
I have not ended my misery in the only way that I might truly escape
It a endless sleep a rest I so desire more than I can speak
But I am strong I will carry on this ends with me
I will not curse my loved ones
Because I could not fight these demons.

Lasagna Casserole

Ok this makes approximately two 13inx9in Casserole dishes

6 Italian Sausages or 16 oz of Italian sausage
2 small gloves of Garlic
1/2 a medium Onion

2-16 oz or 24oz Bag of wide or medium egg noodles cooked (some people like more noodles)
2 lbs mozzarella separated
16 oz container of cottage cheese
67 oz of Prego (I prefer Mushroom but any would do)

Ok so dice the onion and garlic and cook them with the meat I like to skin the sausage links and make them like ground sausage but you can do meat balls if you want. once the meat is cook. strain and put meat and onion/ garlic mix into a large bowl mix in cooked noodles, most of the cheese (leave enough for the top of the casseroles), cottage cheese and Prego mix well and place in 2 casserole dishes sprinkle with remaining Mozzarella cook at 350 degrees for 30 minutes or until cheese on top is done melting

Doritos Casserole

Doritos Casserole

5-7 pieces of cooked chicken (boneless)

2-3 cups of rice (cooked)

1 can of cream of mushroom soup

1 can of cream of chicken soup

1 cup salsa

1 lb cheese, grated

6 oz nacho cheese chips, crushed (I usually use Doritos hence the name)

Cut chicken into small pieces. Mix first 5 ingredients and pour into a baking dish. Put cheese on mixture and top with crushed chips. Bake 250 for 15-25 min,or until cheese is bubbly.

(I think when we have made it we usually mix most of the cheese into the casserole and then sprinkle a small amount on top.)

The Shores of Avalon

Take me to the shores of Avalon

Let me feel the waves against my legs

Let me feel the sun kiss my auburn hair

The wind whisper sweet nothings in my ear

Home sweet home

Avalon my love

The towers of majestic green bare tribute to thy glory

Thy sweet, sweet waters flow from mountain tops to sea

And farther still my Avalon

Home sweet home

Avalon my love

If dreams could truly be

I forever would be in Avalon

My first and only love

Dear sweet Avalon

Home sweet home

Avalon my love

Peace speak my name

Let time stand still in Avalon

Land that I love

Home sweet home

Avalon my love

Whose beauty is beyond compare

My Avalon my home

Though I a wonderer

My love forever is in Avalon

A Warriors Song

A Warriors Song

I fight the good fight

The battle never lost

'Til my last breath I fight

For family

For friend

For freedom

 I fight

If I die this battle be lost

Another takes my spot

The war goes on

We will fight tell our last breath

For better to die a martyrs death

Than live a cowards breath

Fathers Day 2013

So it is Fathers Day again!!! I get to thinking about my father and all he went through for my family and our country. My father is a Vet  who served In Vietnam and has sufford for 30+ years because of his service. He  served in the Marine Corp and came home with PTSD and Agent Orange Exposure which has given him a lot of health problem as I have heard many Vietnam Vets say "'Nams the gift that keeps on giving"...

 I would just like to tell my day how much I love him he wasn't always able to be there for special things because of his health but I am so grateful for the memories I have with him I love you dad so much. I am so proud of the service you have given to this country and all the sacrifices you and mom made for me and my siblings thanks so much.


Love always,
       Proud Daughter of a Marine

Ok so sorry about the long absence

I ended up going home to my moms house for a month and while I was there my husband bought me a house yeah crazy right? I didn't get to see it tell we got the keys for it...so crazy!!! It is awesome though!! It is in a small town in Arizona its nice I am hoping I will adjust to another move I realized on our anniversary that we have had a new apartment now house for ever year we have been married : P I thought I would not move anymore after I got married hah fat chance right. So anyways all this madness has been going on so I will try to start posting again the boys are getting huge and so handsome.... hope I can find which box I packed my camera so I can post some pictures for you all to see post soon promise...

One Mothers amazing words " Are we raising emotionally whole children?"

I would like to share this with you all I found her word very enlightening.  Just click on the link below and it will take you to the original post.


Are we Raising emotionally whole children?

Grandmas